Confusing Depress -wallpaper

I've been playing in photoshop so this is what I wanted...I know I'm not a pro and all that and maybe u'll find this not so good but I was in the mood for something darker.

That's how I picture a depression btw...black and more black with little dots of happy moments that kinda fade away in all that black. So I'm sorry for the cranky mood...

hope u like it anyway

photo: me
textures : [link] [link] and [link]