I'm sorry guys. This will be that kind of journal that's me talking about stuff. Depressive most of the time. So if don't want this kinda stuff just close this page
I'm freakin out. FML. realy. I just finished with all the options I could have of a job. Realy. I replyed job offers and I sent e-mails even to places that weren't asking for a nutritionist, or a photographer, or a receptionist, and all I get is : option 1) No answer ; option 2) A BIG NO! WTF? am I that unqualified? or that disposable? Or my freakin course is that useless? really. I just don't get it. would I get a job if I was prettier? or thiner? I guess not. wtf? How does my countrie expect to evolve when people that graduated have no place to go? or only have shitty jobs? really? How can an entire country close public job offers cause there's no money to pay them and then suddently there's freakin money to build more supermaket's , stupid malls and a frekin new metro when the old one was perfectly fine!! I hate it! I do have a shitty job and it wasn't for this I studied for 4 years. I'm not motivated and I want to change. I'm still looking for a better job that pays more (or actually makes me think and exercise my brain) doing my nutrition stuff. I'm realy lookint it's not bullshit. I just wake up and check all job sites there is looking for one. And I just go to my email and nothing. I sent over 200 emails by now. And nothing. I would pray but I guess it's stupid to do that in this case.I guess my nutrition stuff is going to end soon and I'll have to work at a supermarket or a store or something. Reality is : I need more money otherwise I'll be stuck in parent's for more than I can handle.
The only thing that gets me trough realy is the fact that in 2 weeks my photography classes start and I'll be learning stuff. Cause I tell you, if it wasn't so I would be going crazy right now. Actually I think I going a bit crazy anyway.
Sorry. I think I'm better now. Just needed to get this out.